My Faithful Father
Last weekend was Father's Day. It was an internally painful day for me, as I spent the day constantly thinking about my kids and praying for them, knowing that Father's Day would be tough. Even though my children are grown adults, it pains me to watch them hurt. This seems to be the hardest part of grief now, watching my children miss their dad and seeing my grandkids grow up having never known their pop. Grandkids were what Jon and I were looking forward to as we grew old together. We often talked about grandkids and being grandparents and we wanted rockers on the porch so we could watch them play!
On Father's Day my kids went out to their dad's grave . My daughter took this picture of my grandsons sitting out by the graveside. Such an amazing picture of life and death and of sorrow and joy all joined together. As I look at this picture I am reminded that through all the sorrow and joy over the last several years, there has been one who has been consistent, and that is my Heavenly Father. He has walked beside me and even at times has had to carry me. He has given me strength when I was weak, and He held my heart when it felt like it was falling apart. He has wrapped His arms around me when no one else was there, and He has met every need that I have had. My love for Him grows more day by day, and I find myself giving Him more and more of my trust and am continually learning to walk the road He has planned for me.
I will never understand why I have to see such a bittersweet picture of my family this side of Heaven, but I trust the One who holds my life and the future. I trust the perfect Father. The one who loves me no matter what I do or have done. The one who died for me so that I could have eternal life with Him. I pray that you have come to a place in your life where you have done the same.
I hope that the Lord allowed Jon to look down from Heaven and see his grandson's out at his grave that day. I know he would have loved that very much.
Psalms 100:5 For the LORD is good; his mercy is everlasting; and his truth endureth to all generations.